Thursday, February 26, 2009

Just a thought...

I have been conversing with my 1st live in sub...I am thinking about having him back into my life! He is so devoted to me! I really think that he has matured and is ready to serve me completely again! Well he has never stopped wanting to, but I needed a break. I wanted a "normal" vanilla life. I do not see that happening anytime soon. I am just not wired that way. I love the man in which I am in love with, but I can not be put into a box.

I enjoy having my domestic pet. I love having him around because he gives me everything my little wicked heart desires! He has been asking to come back into my life, but my requirements for him at this point is that he needs a steady 9 to 5. He will not just be my live in...he will maintain an apartment within a 5mile radius from me. He will be on call at all times! He will maintain the up keep of my apartment and the upkeep of his! He will also be my errand boy...and if I want him to he will be my sexual toy that I can do whatever sadistic thing I pleased! I am IM'ng him now...I love know that he still pledges his undying devotion no matter what he has been through and who he has been with! I am still his QUEEN!

:well i am happy to know that i mean that much to you...i do not understand how...but i am happy to know that
robertmaximos:i know what u mean n u truly deserve da best. i also want a 2nd chance if i deserve that. no more playin games n nomore bs. i wna treat u rite n u still my QUEEN no matta what thru thick n thin.
:that is true! i want the best from anyone that is around me...but i keep getin 2nd best! i hate to settle for 2nd best either
robertmaximos:i know u dnt, but i know 1 want whats best 4 u n ur kids n u want 2 b happy n u want da best, i know that 4 a fact.
robertmaximos:yeah i told u 2 stay positive n 2 keep ur head up n2 stay strong n when i felt down, u told me 2 do da same n i still love da poem u wrote me.
:well i just do not know what i want right now
robertmaximos:ur welcome. im glad im cheering u up n now i feel betta to. im still n love wit u just so u know that. i just want to make u happy not feelin down. u use 2 tell me da sme n made me eat da same words.
:thank you robert!
robertmaximos:ur welcome n i wrote that just 4 u. im trying 2 cheer u up. i dnt know what else to say. this is da new me. im just tryin 2 xpress my love 2 u n how i feel. ur my Empress Scorpio Goddess, my Queen.
:thank you
robertmaximos:1 last thing b4 i get offline. 2 da world u may b 1 person, but 2 1 person ur da world. u mean da world 2 me, my heart cries out 4 ur heart, 2 hearts make 1, ur my Beautiful Queen 4eva n eva n i luv u
:i will get home about 730
robertmaximos:i apologize if im makin u mad since ur not sayin nothin. im gna get offline then.
robertmaximos:what time do u get home tonite? im not gna give up on u, just do not give up on me. u n i need to talk n would love to talk to u n person to. if u eva wna talk.
robertmaximos:oh no u will. im right here n ur corner. im not going anywhere. im gna write a song for u using ur display name. im gna call u to nite regardless.
robertmaximos:u can trust me. i know what u mean im da same way. im still her 4 u. rememba what i said, keep ya head n stay positive, just stay strong.
:well i guess i will not be hearing from you anymore...
:i do not know...i do not know who to trust right now
robertmaximos:i apologize. well when may i c u again?
:do not cal me boo
robertmaximos:i know. but i really do wna cya, i really do...i know u still n g*********t n i have friends out there to. i just wna cya. i miss u boo. just let me n.
: robert...you are wasting your time! i am not in the same place and until i want to be found you will not be able to find me
robertmaximos:u know what i am gna go down there, im just gna wait 4 my ride because i also wna cya. im makin an effort 2 come c u. im gna hold u n my arms like neva b4.
:do not waste your time coming down here...you will not find me!
robertmaximos:what are u talking about? do not make me find a ride down there now cuz i will but wnt have a way back unless my friend waits for me n my ride will be here at 4 n i will go down there.
:if i do not answer...you already know why!
robertmaximos:ima call u tonite, i dnt wna see u like that n im gna talk to u bout, im right here for u, stop tryin to push me away, i wna help n be there for u.
:i am going to be out of touch in the near future...so peace!!
robertmaximos:i know what u mean n i do have lots of patience.
:Robert...i do not want to talk right now...but i am a vexed soul and it will take someone very strong with patience to deal with my soul
robertmaximos:im tryin to show more action n even if i had to find a way down there to prove it to u i will.
:you did let me know how you felt and i am still waiting for someone to step to the plate...less talk more action!
robertmaximos:some gay guy just tried to hit on me on here. i tried letting u know how i felt n i still love u to.
:sure i guess...
robertmaximos:i know n im gna have a steady job. ima call u tonite when u get off or u call me so we can talk more about it.
:you have to have stability robert! a good job is a must and love for me and only me!
robertmaximos:shit i really do want u back n my life n will do whateva it takes to get u back.
robertmaximos:i cnt wait to get my own landscaping business. y u not happy, im here to listen to u.
:hey robert! i am not happy right now! but i will be okay! how are you?

What should I do?

Tuesday, February 17, 2009


your flesh
taste exquisite
it smells divine
soft and supple
laying next to mine

Thursday, February 12, 2009

My thoughts about you right now...

I just want to tie you up and flick cigarette butts at you!
Watch you flinch as you are afraid one of them will get in your face!
Laugh at your pathetic ass until you start feeling the difference...
the difference you may ask?
When you walked in you thought you were ready...
you felt that this was just a game...
then you feel the hatred in my voice
as I verbally make you aware of your worth!
I take my paddle and smack you across the face with it!
It makes me feel so good so I slap your bitch ass again!
"IF you cry I will give you something to cry about!"
I tell you in the most subtle of voice!
I am tired of your look, your style is repulsive
I strip you down into the nothing you are...
and I laugh!
You fucked up now!
I want you to cry...
I want you to beg...
I want you to wish you were dead!!
As you are tied up...arms held high
I take my candle to your underarms
the heat from the flame to the sensitive nerves under the skin
is more than you can bear...
you cry for relief
and don't to your despair!
I switch to the other arm
as you plead for mercy...
I stare at your shameful face...
tears rolling down...
skin red and heated...
I am pretty sure that you are feeling defeated!
That is when I dig in a bit deeper!
I feel that your cock is a worthless piece of shit...
if it was not such a crime I would probably rid you of it!
Since it is then I will do the next best thing...
make it feel EXCRUCIATING pain!
Before your erection your little limp dick
I would take my trusty rat trap to it!
SNAP!
Goes the trap..."Hey look I caught another rat!"
How funny is that!!
You scream in so much pain and asking for release...
but before I do...
one more thing must be done...
Stimulation...yes I must get you that hard on!
My whispers in your ear
of my sweetest desires
the breath on your neck has got you passionately hotter.
I take your mind off the pain that I have just inflicted...
temperature is getting higher and higher
and then you realize there is a block in the line...
Haaaaaaa I am such an evil bitch!!

See you next time!!

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

Just think if there were 2 of me...


"I don't mind living in a man's world as long as I can be a woman in it. "

~Marilyn Monroe

Friday, February 06, 2009

Wednesday, February 04, 2009

Wednesday WEIRDNESS...

1.) Tell us something that to you is weird about your significant other. (If single, pick an ex) It can be a personality quirk, a hobby, a habit, a ritual etc but just make sure it's something you find odd about them.
He will not use public restrooms at ALL! Unless it is an EXTREME emergency!

2.) What are 3 songs that you find sexy?
Til the Cops Come Knocking ~ Maxwell
Closer ~ Nine Inch Nails
Uh Ah ~ Boys II Men

3.) After your partner goes down on you, do they have to brush their teeth/rinse with mouthwash before meeting your mouth again or do things just roll on?
We just keep on rollin!! WTH...it must be really bad if you have to stop and brush!

4.) Is it ever okay to go ass to mouth without cleaning in between? (Anal sex to oral sex. Licking the anus to kissing. Etc )
Ewwwww! That is just nasty! No rim shots!!

5.) If you were going to give yourself a "Most Likely To..." award for this week, what would your title be?
Most likely to overbook!

6.) Do you read any self-help books? If so, which is your favorite? If not, why not?
No...I have not really! I think I am too narcissistic! I tend to start reading it and then I feel in my own mind I do that already!

7.) Do you prefer to buy porn, sex toys, lube and things of that nature in a store or discreetly online? Why?
I prefer to buy my porn and such at the store! I love the taboo feeling of walking in there and men are looking like...huh...a woman is in here?

8.) List these things in order from what you find most sexy to least sexy: Money, Loyalty, Sense of humor, Intelligence, Kindness, Romantic, Open-mindedness, Kinky, Honesty.
Intelligence
Loyalty
Honesty
Sense of Humor
Kindness
Romantic
Open Mindedness
Money
Kinky

Originally Posted by Jessica