My love
My pussy waits for you
warm
wet
empty
that is not the way it should be
My love
you are to be here
she is thirsty
wanting
you to share your milk
My love
my pussy waits for you
come and pet
my pretty
pretty
pussy

Reflections...

I do not normally reflect on the past, it tends to slow down the momentum of my future. However, I must admit...I love it when I can actually stop and go "WoW! I did that?" My video that I have posted here is one of those moments from 2008! I actually broke out of my self abuse and started appreciating what was given to me. I hope to one day just help other women feel good about themselves as I am learning! Well enough mushy shit!! Hope you get all hot and bothered by watching this little clip, and if you do check out my others at My Video Store!

Wish I was at home instead of behind this desk. I wish I was in bed nude...my favorite place to be with my favorite outfit to wear. I never have understood the concept of clothing in your bedroom or during leisure time. I love being able to be as free as possible. I am not a nudist, but I do love the nude!
I love how bodies feel skin to skin, especially when the skin that you are in contact with is the skin of someone you love. I love to be able to just engulf myself in the arms of my love. Smell his scent and feel his body. It is a known thing that when you are free with yourself you are truly free. I am free!

HNT Newbie...

I keep seeing HNT. I did not know what HNT was until I came across the most lovely of blogs! " Views From the Back Row" was nice enough to get me on track! I can not wait for Thursdays now! It will be interested to see the pics from this community! And of course I can not wait to post what will become my blog tradition I hope! So here is to

Me and my new toy

Me and my new toy, originally uploaded by EmpressScorpio.

So this weekend was fun...filled with surprises! My favorite one is my new phone that my beau got me! He loves me dearly and spoils me rotten! That is why he will not EVER be forgotten! Corny I know...well now we have to get him settled in his apartment! I can not wait to break in his new place...leave my scent of attraction!

Laterz!

Silly Lovers...

This is me and my beau...just in case you did not know! He is HOTT!! He is the dreamiest!

Just a quickie...

Picture 290, originally uploaded by EmpressScorpio.

I want to tell everyone...Merry Be-lated Christmas and a wonderful New Year! I had a lovely Christmas indeed! Family and friends filled with well wishes! Most of all I felt like the royalty! I was totally just regal and divine! I loved the whole day...minus my moms being a royal bitch! She is still pissed at the broken engagement between me and my beau! I really think that it is petty as we have moved on. We hurt and we move on. He is still my love and I am still his. Just wrong timing. We continue to date and see each other and that is the way we like it at the moment.
The best Christmas gift that I received was him and I spending time together and enjoying time with my Grandmother and Grandfather! Oh yeah and he is coming with me to get my 1st tattoo. I am not sure as to what I am going to have branded on me...but I want it to be of importance to me. I will soon need to make up my mind...because I do not want to be one of those persons that get random tattoo because it is "cute"!
Well in the meantime...MERRY CHRISTMAS AND HAPPY NEW YEAR!

IMG_0154, originally uploaded by EmpressScorpio.

I bare my soul
as bare as my skin
there is still a level deep within
that even I can't see
but I know one day
it will reveal itself
to you
and me

webcam4, originally uploaded by EmpressScorpio.

Cause when I open my eyes
i feel you watching me
judging me
laughing at me
Your perfection
demeaning me
with unjust rules
I love you
but sometime I feel you can be so cruel
I examine myself
to try and understand
why I feel the way I do
a very powerful woman
until i come to you
i desire your approval
i desire your touch
i desire your words
i desire this much
but more than ever
for my king
your queen
desires your
powerful
reign

AngelicMe

AngelicMe, originally uploaded by EmpressScorpio.

I just wanted to post this video. I think this one will be my first video posting on here. It is one of my favorite videos made because of the song and how angelic I look! I am so special...LoL!! Well enjoy! If there you ever need a smile then just watch this video...

I do not really have to many plans for Christmas. I am mainly just spending it with family and friends. I am to keep a window open for a movie date. However, I am not sure at this time how probable that will be. I hate planning things, but with David, I have to plan it out! I love just to go where the moment takes me! Life is much like art, when you just let the moment move you, the outcome is normally much more beautiful than you could ever hope for!

Merry Christmas to all!!

PrisonBreak

Okay so I am watching PrisonBreak and all the men on there are so yummy!! They need to just make a calendar of the men of PrisonBreak!

New episodes start this spring! Spring 2009? Damn, that is torture!! LoL!!

Speaking openly...

Okay...I know that he would probably kill me for telling...but David and I had the most yummy night Wednesday. I try not to write about our pleasures, but I must say I can not hold it in. We were talking and one thing led to another, and I asked to see his lovely cock! Yes, he has the most gorgeous cock I have had the pleasure of playing with. I started to caress and kiss it as I normally would and it was lovely! I decided to inhale and take in as much as I could. I DID IT!! I took it all in...now normally I can not because of a serious gag reflex issue, but not this night! It was awesome to be able to take him all in at once! Mind you I did have to take a few breaks, but I still was very proud of my progress! I love giving my man head!! Then on top of that ...I requested for no oral in return, but I wanted anal!! DAMN...that was the best anal we have ever done!! Slow motion, deep penetration, and very sensual erotic ride until we both climaxed! I sooooooooo enjoyed it!! Can I get a repeat...oh yeah!!

I am in such a mood...

I do not know why...but I have been jammin to Jeffree Star one moment and then Jaime Foxx the next! I do not know what is up with that ...but I downloaded about 6 songs from J-Stars site on iTunes and now I want to go pick up the new Jaime Foxx for the car. I am so fucking fierce today!! Whatch out bitches...LoL!!

So far my online Christmas gifts have arrived, and I have also been able to secure the cutest pair of shoes for only $10.95 from amazon.com!! Lucky me...LoL!!

Noticed...

I noticed that I do have people commenting on my blogspot! How lovely!! Now if I can just learn how to do the same and find many, many more on this site! It certainly helps past the time when I am at work! Because everyone knows that since the discovery of the internet, there has been less productivity in the office place than ever before! LoL!! I know that I do find myself gazing off...and when I do...I make myself look busy by net surfing! At this time I am shoppig or a dildo, and it is a bit aggrevating! I do not want anything too big, because I am not! I also do not want anything too small, because I am not!! I would love something that fits me and still does not cause too much damage that my man will not like the glove fit anymore! I think I will probably purchase a tickler and see what happens then!

So I know I have been MIA...but I have the holiday blues. I am not in the freaking holiday spirit, but I refuse to let that bring everyone else down. I am trying to move forward with a lot of things that for some reason people want to wait until after the holidays to move on with. I have also put on hold my relationship with my current beau! He and I realize that we moved way to fast and for some reason never really got to date! Yeah!! I am just as shocked as you...but looking back...it is ironically true! How do you go from getting to know someone to being ENGAGED!! It was so weird!! However, we are dating, trying to at least and see where that leads us! I hope to a lasting ever after, but if not...you know it is not the end of my world!! I love him and he is such a good man that this will be very interesting!

I tend to over do it around the holidays which makes me really anal! I like to make sure that I get the best for my money and I love to make people smile during this time of year! It was only 3.5 yrs ago that I was in a homeless shelter, giving people and their generosity helped me get my life back and believe in hope again! So I really try to bring smiles to anyone I can! Well I hope that all of you reading find peace, love, and happiness this season and the year to come!! Love ya!!

My Declaration

I am a woman
that I know
not perfect
but full of beautiful imperfections
I may belch
at the dinner table
I may say fuck you
to authority
I may kiss you
one day
and punch you the next
But I am still as lovely
as the beauty
that graces the magazines
I am
the beauty that makes
life worth living
I will show you
what you
do not want to see
and see things you
did not want shown
I am as perfect
as God made me
who are you to judge me!!

Do things change or do we...

Break the chains of society...
break the chains of normalcy
what others want you to be
may not be who you are
but rather
be you
the freedom you seek
feels so good
until you become a
sideshow freak!

I never really understood the meaning of relationships that last a lifetime. I mean there are people that we come across that we will always carry with us, because of what they taught us about ourselves.

However, what is this whole thing about lifetime of togetherness? I know that in life things change, that is the only thing except death that we can count on in life. The only thing that we can not change is CHANGE!

But in relationships, do "things" change...or do we? In a relationship when you feel "things" are changing between one another, is it really "things" or is it the people in it? I honestly listen to the words that come out of peoples mouths and it sorta baffles me. I think about the things that I say to others and ponder..."What did I just say?" Does it even make sense when you actually think it out? I do believe that we have conditioned ourselves to give the most simplest of answers to cope with the most complicated questions.

I try to make sure that when there is a question that an answer I find. However, when the answer is years in the making and the people surrounding you cannot understand that the answer is NOT ever going to come in the time frame window given, what do you do? Do you leave and go your separate ways, just to inflict the same unknown on the next person? Do you torture them to stick it out with you? Or do you fly alone, like a bee stopping only to admire the beauty, splendor, and life of the flower in which you deem?

Excuse the absolute random thinking's of an obvious enslaved free spirit! Your comments are welcome, but not necessary!

Is he the dreamiest...

The "Evolution" of Robin Thicke has been nothing but extrodinary!! I have really come to love this artist and every single album he does is a must buy for me!! I can not wait until his new album is on my iPod!! This was the video that I first fell in love with him and his music!!

Are you a pebble...

The funny thing about life is that you go through these ups and downs. Sometime it seems that the downs are more than that of the ups. However, I know that it is slightly different. I know that we have more ups than downs...we just dwell on the negative a bit too much. I am funny that way...

David and I were on the way to work and I was talking about how horrible my nails looked. He thought that it was funny because he could not see what I was talking about. He stated that is not important to him as a man...but I have to agree to disagree on that one. WHAT? He could not see what or how he could have made an issue of my hands. I explained that when I touch him how he says my hands feel like the softest thing that has ever touched him. How do you thing that happens baby? I asked what he would think if I DID NOT take care of my skin and became crusty and rough. He stated that he would not "really" mind if that were to happen. I so laughed! That is a bald face lie!! Men are mainly visual and touchy by nature...they love the sight and touch of a beautiful woman. Why would I be anything less...but the question arose from his mum, stating that she could not understand why she has been single for so long.

Wanting to blame it on her job, she is very physically active on her job. Honestly putting it, she does do a man's job. However, as I told David...it is all in the packaging. Men like different things indeed, it is all in the presentation. If you come across as a person who is not into their outward appearance, do not think that there is a man that is sitting waiting to make an effort to sweep your of your feet. A man does want a woman that he can have the world envy. In his eyes his woman is a jewel, and if you do not polish yourself then you will not be looked at as a jewel. More so a pebble that if looked at closely will reveal how precious, but at first glance just a simple ol' pebble!

Ladies, do not get mad if your man (or men in general) pays no attention to you anymore. Just ask yourself...am I a pebble or a jewel?

Whewwww...

So it has been along time...I have not posted to much on here! I am so frazzled at this time...so many things good and bad that seem to just have me on edge. I feel like I have so much to do and so little time to do it! I am a bit bummed that this weekend was the weekend that I was to marry my fiance...but it is not going to happen. WAIT...WE ARE STILL TOGETHER...but I do not have the confidence anymore that we will be together in marriage. He says he loves me...but I do not know if he can deal with me...the type of person that I am and all of the shit that comes along with the territory! They say if you love each other that is all that matters...well I think that they who said that must have been the most niave person on earth. I am certainly not seeing that...I know that it takes alot of work...but because of the type of person I am I do not think that most men can handle. Oh well I just pray for the best...

On another note...I am! Yep that is all I can say is that I am! I want to feel like I can do anything but there are times that I just can not...I cannot seem to muster the stregnth. I was not designed to work like all the other females. I seem to just be on some kind of battery that keeps on going and then just when I think that I am going to go...fizzle away...just completely dissolve...BAAAMMMM!!

I love it!!

I love it! I really do!! If you want to know more you should look it up! It is the new thing... ooVoo! I am no longer into yahoo, messnger, and any other chatting sites! You will find me on ooVoo!

Yeah...

I am extremely happy today. I got a little gift from a good friend of mine. I was sent a Target gift card from Al! He comes across hard, but he is the sweetest guy I know! A treasured person indeed!

Learning as I go...

I think that I am in a different place now...I know that I am reaching for higher heights now! I can see things happening for me...in my dreams...and my life...I can see! I think that I am out of my vacuum sealed existence! I have broke the hold! I am just breaking barriers!! I am blessed!

So it has been a few days...lol..that I have wrote anything! I have been so bored lately! I have not had too much communication on myspace and or LJ! I mean it is like the world has stood still! I am so shocked! So I have been searching out for new ways to amuse myself, because those sites have become so much of a bore! Let me first state that I really need to get off my ass and start my site up and running again! It has been under construction for 3wks now!! LoL!! I will try and work on that this weekend! I promise!! I probably will work little on it as I will try to get my photos done for one of my favorite people! More about that in the near future!

I am so lost without my phone today...but a good thing that I am looking for is that I will get a NEW celly!! Yes...I like the one I have...but I am in the market for a new one! It will be a Sprint phone...however it will be new! Since we are starting a new contract! I am keeping my same number, need to...too many who have it! However I am thinking of getting a phone line specific for the business! Yeah...I need one! It will be about time!

I am really happy! In a really good mood!! My favorite time of the year is here!! I become really generous and my mind is very clear this time of year! I love the fall and winter months! I do not remember when I did not! Even when I am alone I am so happy...during this time of year of course!

My Saturday thus far...

I have a had a brilliant day. It has been filled with laughter and kisses. I do not think that anything can destroy my mood. I have been playing with a few of my pictures and I have found it to be most amusing...I have thought of the fact that I can be at time mysterious. I tend to show only enough for people to continue to come back for more! I hope that at times people will just understand the true me...however I know that I never give up all of me. So when it really boils down to it...maybe I have multiple personalities! Yeah that means that I can be a bit on the crazy side...but I do not mind. It keeps my life interesting and that is all that matters. Never boring always something behind the next corner.

I fully embrace the fact that I am a Scorpio, and I do not think that I could be anyone else but me!! I am so fabulous, I am so wonderful. You will not want to miss what the hell goes on in my head...although I doubt anyone can keep up!! LoL!!

When I dream...

When I dream, I dream in color!
I do not limit myself to the mere black and white of any situation. I sometime find myself mesmerized of all the endless possibilities of what my mind can and will come up with!
I rarely have nightmares...unless you count the other night when I dreamed that I got a REALLY bad case of head lice. And that is weird because I have not ever heard of any African American treating lice. I dreamed that I was devastated and that I had to do something, because I was not going to comb through all of my thick ass hair with a itty bitty comb! So I started cutting...and cutting...until I was about done with a fourth of my head. All I had was about 2.5 inches of wavy hair on my head. I was so shocked at what I was doing. Then my shock turned into tears...I did not know how my fiance would act. So I stated that he should love me no matter what...but I did not want the lice to ruin my lovely scalp! So I continued to cut and I loved it, and hated it all at the same time!
I really do not know what that means, but there you have it!

My First Foot Fetish Clip...

Okay I must admit that I have done a bit of quirky things before...but I have finally done what I truly stated made no sense to me!! I made my 1st foot clip! Yeah...high heels and toes all there for foot worshiping individuals. I kinda loved how it turned out! I did not think that it would matter, but hey...who am I to judge! I have silly little things that get my juices flowing also...

So please enjoy it...give me feed back if you have any!!

One day...

I would love to run for political office one day....

Saying that...I doubt I would be a candidate...with my oh so checkered past! Then again, I have seen worst men elected into office! So who knows. I just can not stand how corrupt our government has become! I would love to be like the good ones!

The begining...

I am not much for silence. I like to speak my mind. Here is my introduction, and you will learn much more in time! I am who I am, I can change what I want, and when I want! If you do not like my ramblings and or thoughts, then do not read! I will not be disappointed. I would be honored that you found the balls to leave without causing a scene. However, I would wish you success and hoping that you understand that not everyone thinks or does what you like, and you will gain patience and wisdom in your journey through life!

Well here we go...