Today I am hungry, more than normal. I tend to find a way to quench my appetite, but for some strange reason I can not today. I am finding it harder and harder to deny my attraction to women. I find them lovely, beautiful, and bewitching. Which is strange...does that mean that I am so egocentric that if I did take the time to look in the mirror that I would truly fall in love with myself?
If you have seen that video "Sober" by Pink, you may know what I mean. I dream sometime that I am making love to myself and it feels SOOOOO damn good! Then I open my eyes in my dream and it is a man, most of the time it is my beloved who is bringing me the pleasure I seek. However, I am still finding myself making love to myself. Weird, but that is just one of the dreams I have had and yet to understand. I really long to slowly undress a woman, and caress her. To smell her skin and to kiss it softly. I desire to taste the breath on her lips, and to nuzzle in her bosom as a new born child. To taste the nectar of God that gives life...it should be the most satisfying dish to enjoy. However, it is not just because she is a woman. If it were than ANY crackwhore will do, but no it is only the ones that are as I am. That love beyond boundaries, that bring forth life not only physically but mentally. The woman that truly embodies mother earth, an angel, a goddes, an evil she devil when pushed.
I can not put myself in a catergory to define my sexuality, I just love! I love freely and it is sad that I can not express it without the world caging you with negativity! I sometime long to be in a world that I precieve when I read the medieval stories of knight, nymphs, goddesses, witches, and other wonderful tales. Or in the tales of Greek gods and goddess! The funny thing is that I still love men also!
Posts
